NO 1Inrisistable smile
make's life worthwhile
imagining you with me
silently laying beside me
sleeping so peacefully
under a apple tree.
NO 2
Jewel that shine
I hope shes mine
Nice and loving
Silent sleeping
Her face so pretty
Impossible to resist
NO 3.
I was still deciding
someone gave me a sign
told me to follow my heart
instead of my mind
listening to those words
listen, thats what i did
learnt that my heart says yes
obvious urging me ahead
various warnings flash before me
everyone i wave away
you're telling me dont
otherwise its too late
u
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11:28 PM
wang le you duo jiu zai mei ting dao ni dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi wo xiang le hen jiu wo kai shi huang le shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me # ni ku zhao dui wo shuo tong hua li du shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le * wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju Repeat # and * wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju yi qi xie wo men de jie ju [can life really b a fairytale??]
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10:40 PM
haiz.. yapex.. finally i can blog.. wanted to blog it just now but the system cnt work i think.. there are so many many many many things happening ard mi now!! family, hpt, my own life.. so many ppl ard me that i needs mi and i need them and i want them.. i m kinda missing dy so much now... so much so much...council+hpt seems such a disaster ryt now.. i noe i noe.. those were harsh decisions.. but hey guys!! it means tym to reflect!! it is owaz when things are unchangable then we start to regret.. wads the point?? failing to identify wif the mistake during the process is already one of the many faults that we made in our lifes... that is REGRET!! i m not trying to scold u if u think i m.. i m trying to make u understand that there is no point fighting against n doing wad u shldnt at this point of tym to show that u r correct and not in the wrong.. now is the tym to do sumthing so that although at this stage, the chance may b only 5% but to show ur DESIRE and how much YOU WANT IT.. thats all u can do ya?? this is to show that u r mature enuf to think and to act and not b lyk a stubborn child refusing to listen.. this incident should gif u a very good lesson to learn that IMAGE DOES COUNT.. RED SHIRT.. tis shirt symbolizes alot alot for every hpt.. but r we putting too much of our efforts and thinking base on this shirt?? i m oso sumone that respect the red shirt and hangs it straightly in my cupboard.. i m oso sumone that wears this shirt wif pride.. i m oso sumone that does superman things when i m in that shirt.. i m oso sumone that is super guai, super discipline when i m wearing it... but i do noe, without it, i m still a hpt not sum ordinary chap that roams ard.. i take pride in everything i do WIF OUR WIFOUT the shirt and i do it the BEST I CAN.. DO THINGS NOT TO MAKE PPL RECOGNIZE THE EFFORTS BUT TO B ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS... i do noe ppl look at mi WIF OR WIFOUT the shirt as a hpt.. so wad does it mean?? it means i m to do hpt proud WIF OR WIFOUT the shirt.. and how does we do hpt proud?? by doing wad we have been doing during the training camps... camps might b diff but the teaching nv change cuz no matter wad, it is still wad we belief.. sumtyms i wonder y God makes mi go thru wad i m going thru now.. gif mi trouble ryt now and to deal wif things that i wun really experience in at least 3 yrs tym.. the only ans will be the 2nd P- PREPARATION. He has prepared all these for a main reason n that is to b prepared.. facing all these crisis actually arent a very bad thing.. it made mi grow and to know how to face it next tym... wifout all these ups and downs and all these issues wads there in life?? i m sumone hu chooses to have a longer wavelength... so mayb we shld learn to enjoy the rollar coaster ride... n have fun.. =))dydy... will u pls not leave mi?? i need u... [Be accountable for ur own actions..]
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8:58 PM
KABBOOM!!!! u noe now is wad tym?? 830am!!! n today is MONDAY!!! kekez... dun think i m notti cuz i hv got an mc!! hmm... i think i have dengue.. except for the rash cuz i think god noes i m ugly enuf!!! kekez... i m feeling so much better now... thats y i can b up here blogging.. kekez.. guess how many hours i slept?? count for u see...FRIDAY: 5pm-7am=14 hrsSATURDAY: 2pm-8am=18hrsSUNDAY: 2pm-7am=17hrsTOTAL: 49 hrs!!!now u noe y i cnt sleep anymore!!! it oso meant how long i was hugging ah chou!!! kekez.. i wasted 2 days of my life just by sleeping!!! i was feeling so xingu this few days!! actually i din really sleep lahz.. cuz my head was too pain to let me slp!!! it was so so so so painful that i tot i was going to die u noe!!! man, i nearly tak my head to bang it against the wall!!! i really tot i was going to die that tym... i nearly mass send I LOVE YOU to eveyone in my contact list so that i will die wif no regrets!! imagine my desperate!! i tot GOD wans to punish me for all my wrong doings and is going to end my life when i m 16... i was really feeling terrible inside!!! but now i m feeling so much so much better.. i finally manage to really sleep at bout 7 last night.. Thank GOD... afterall he still loves mi...!! i ask him when i was feeling so sick why he must let mi go thru this, waiting for his reply and i solve the mystery myself!! that is he noes i have a bunch of good frens and people around mi and he wants mi to urge all of ur to be aware of this stupid mosquitoes so that ur will be extra careful!! kekez... thats the only reason i can think of!!! kekez... yapes... so better drink lots lots water k everybody!!! bring along a connected hose whereever u go!!! hor steph??? kekez.. the usual stubborn mi learn to tak medicine regularly now.. although i already skipped it twice... kekez.. oops... cuz i cnt stand the headache!! it is really painful man... i was whinning lyk sum baby all day long...!! luckily ah dar was wif mi! listen to mi whine n whine n whine... non stop cuz my headache jus dun wanna go away... kekez... lucky she nv just gif mi a punch in the face... kekez.. i woke up today n realise that i guess my whole family noes about it i guess.. cuz everybody is calling asking for my health!! man. i m so touched!! i m so blessed!!! kekez.. yapex.. i jus lost 2 kg i guess cux i was sleeping for 2 days rmb?? kekez.. only surviving on water.. and when i tried to eat, i vomitted everything out!! i omos wanted to die.. i just sat beside the toilet bowl and everything i did was vomit, vomit and vomit.. now i dun dare to eat anymore... until i m fully recovered, u will c my craving for everything again!!! kekez... and the list goes on!! kekez.. was kinda weak that few days but now i m feeling so much better, i feel lyk jogging again and to b active again!! cnt wait to play again... =)) 2 days of mc i think will make mi bored so i think ur will most prob c mi tmr!!! kekez..FRIDAY: the play was a wonderful success!! except for some parts when i cnt hear but everything was fine!!! the cast did a really fantastic job in delivering their lines!! and my crew did a wonderful job too!! kekez... good comments were heard!! it sweetens the heart!!! well done everybody!!! BOON CHEE came down inspite not bringg anything and without knowing what to do!! it kinda warms my heart!!! her effort was much appreciated!!! it was the gesture. =))SATURDAY: went catholic high to c npcc cadets take the batch which i forgot the name but it was the most prestigious award i think.. did i spell it correctly?? kekex.. i hope i did.. =)) kinda proud.. but din tak foto cuz i was too weak... cab home.. slept so long that i omos lose track of tym... but now that i m feeling so much better.. i m starting to tak my stride.. luckily it is at this point of tym not when o's was tmr... and when the play was done and my mid years are done... so i m going to start studying hard again.. =) n ya... the indian boy nv call mi again!!! humph... means i will nt b having tuition again!!! tao yan... so i m in search of another tutee... [Psalms 91:2-42 'I will say of the lord' he is my refuge and my fortress, my god in whom i trust. 3 surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and fromt the deadly pestilence 4 he will cover you with his feathers and under his wings you will find refudge; his faithfulness will be your shiled and rampartgiven by mitchell]
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8:43 AM
AHEM.... kekez... lalala... i m BACK!! miss mi???
kekez.. finally.. exams are over... n can relax?? NONONO!!! my mid year is so screwed up lahz.. all the papers.. ok.. not all.. but most!! o man... i m so upset and i m still suppose to check the ans before i really noe that i fail.. horible... but nvm... no point crying over spilled milk... i m going to work hard to buy myself another cup of drink!! fruit juice mayb?? kekez.. although i craved to drink that cup of milk, i cnt do anything bout it anymore... although i reallly feel lyk drinking milk now!! kekez... =))
came up to do my it day... finished and was looking thru my com and found lots of pictures.. loads loads of them... kekez.. lots of memories man... good and bad... sum i dun even feel lyk remembering... but quite alot of them brought happy memories!! pictures that i took wif a lot of ppl... sum i m missing, sum i lost them... erm... memories are just lyk tt...
erm... undergoing a huge turning point of my life... differentiate to get the point!!! kekez.. oops... too mathmatical... kekez... huge things happen... huge huge huge!!! i kinda lyk the path after the turn... i mean mine not hers... i dunno if she wld lyk hers but i hope she is able to pick up and walk wif the hole and wait for sumone to fill it up.. although i noe who it will b... i just noe sumthing amazing about her!! o man... kekez... ya... turning points are good or bad?? depends?? but i m sure mine is good and i wld love it!! really.. i would have to learn to be more self dependant and not on things that is EVER-CHANGING!!! wanna noe hu i m depending now!! AH CHOU!! kekez.. he will never change and HE LOVES MI!! kekez.. wondering hu this ah chou is?? MY BF!!! kekez... oops... shouldnt have said so loud!! he is on my lap now!! kekez.. HE SAYS HI!! =)) i m not going to make anymore twist and turn cuz i had enuf of it... and definitely not ever a u-turn... never.. yapex..
haiz.. cuz i flunk my mid years... i m so going to study hard!! yapex.. so that i wld not flunk my prelims and subsequent exams.. u wld not want to noe wad stupid things i did!! when i realise it i just feel lyk banging my head on the wall lahz.. haiz.. but nevertheless... i enjoyed my day of my last exam wif the 2 of them.. they make mi happy.. kekez.. wif him wanting to shop n shop and her wanting to go find her ahem ahem fren... kekez.. oops... =))
today i m going to study abit and play in the evening!! i cnt stand sitting down all day long anymore since exams are over.. but i m still going to study... yeah!! n i m going woodlands for tuition this sat which i still dunno wad is the add and dunno how to go either.. kekex... ya... n mayb i will cum out of a routine that i will study at woodlands library??? anyone in favour?? =))
[changes are the only constant in life..]
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11:57 AM
