BOo. haiz.. wads happening?? i dun understand.. grr... think i said the wrong thing bahz.. i really feel guilty.. i really do... but dun think it can be tak back.. hav i cause troble again??? haiz.. dunno lahz... i still love you guys as much as i do...
kinda confused with it lahz.. lots of ppl i miss... ppl who shld hav been by my side all this life.. to be there to protect mi when trobles comes... now he is as helpless as i m.. n i hate myself for not being to help him... haiz.. di...i really miss you... at this moment... i dunno why... i really miss you a lot... all i cn do is to miss you and pray i guess... i need you...
haiz... i had the choice but i still choose to open it and mak myself feel so miserable again.. stupid mi rite?? kekez... cnt stand myself... n there is goes agian lor... non stop at the wrong tym.. i miss you more even aft that... haiz...
i was such a failure lahz... dun think i cn ever do anything rite... wads the prob wif mi?? haiz.. total disappointment...
wad the point of sharing?? i dun lyk sharing!!! esp love.... why did you try to share it?? i dun lyk it... it oni cause problem... ppl gets hurt and the pain it is nv gonna get heal... haiz..
aiyo.. it hurts to c ppl having family problem... haiz.. we shld really treasure wad we have lor.. doing rash things doesn't help... think before you do...
the smile u gave mi that tym on the corridor... i tot everyting is gonna b fine... everything is going to b alright.. not hoping too much just one step by one step... but my wishful thinking just let mi down so much... i shldn't have hope... i shldn't have tot so much.. i shldn't have be so naive... haiz...
i learn more bout myself... i m not sumone that strikes conversation... i m not sumone that will go ask "wad are you doing" or "wad is your fav colour" or wadeva thing that is bout sumone else lor... dunno lehz... i m just that self centered lor.. ya..
boy boy... so fierce... scratch mi!!! notti... aiya... i just dun wan to spoil him lor... i m just so weak lahz... stupid mi... he even call mi a "baby"... m i that childish?? even a pri 1 calls mi a baby?? is tym for reflection man.. kekez...
happy things happen... n it stays in my heart... thx for everything... the feeling nv change...
if you happen to be worrying... dun worry... i m fine... i cn live my life... i dun want to lean onto the air again... sorry... i m happy if u cared.. thx.. =))
things are happening fast.. jus take it...
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9:49 PM
Ahem... haiz.. life is really getting hard huh??? haiz.. hearing so much... wads happening in the world of mine man?? haiz..
long since i ever got the chance to tell the person beside mi wad is happening in my life.. my life... the way it shld be??? wondering wad god has prepared for mi... the future.. wad will happen to mi or will i ever have it?? haiz.. long since i get the shoulder i wan to lean on.. the shoulder that i wld cry on.. the arms that i will have comfort in.. the hands when i will hold walking thru the places.. where r u?? i m losig the point in life... the point that drives mi forward...
i really miss you.. everybody thinks it is easy.. to just take the first.. i wan too.. the first to ever get the chance to get you back.. but i m so useless lahz.. how to?? this times of avoiding you isn't good life for mi either.. the times when i cn oni c u from afar... the times when i get oni get to catch a few glimpse of u looking at mi... you will nv know how much they all meant to mi.. maybe god just wants mi to be independent on myself.. had i depend on you too much??
haiz.. i feel lyk chopping off my hand lahz.. so useless... grr... getting so tired of it.. clumsy mi...
Racial Harmony Day.. kekez.. i m so proud of my class... so glad we got tgt to finish up.. we did a great job lo... esp the chairman.. we are so pround of u!!! kekez... well done..
[frenship is not measure in units but by the times ur heart connects..]
i blowed at,,
2:24 PM
ERM... haiz.. alone at home.. IT day today... kekez.. got time to slack and stuff.. kekez.. yapez... done most of my work then decided to blog... kekez..
haiz.. kinda think of all the stuff i shldnt though... tts wad i do wen i m alone at home... nthg to pei wo wad.. haiz.. lots of things huh... guess wad song i listening??? haiz.. [there is none lyk u].. shit lahz... haiz... memories are cuming back... going thru them... my heart broke... the day wen i saw her.. she is so pai seh... din understand y till i ask her where she is going... haiz... the tym nv return... nthg is going to cum bk...
er... i jerk my hand again... the day when i saw her.. aft gym... haiz... stupid mi lahz... owaz do this kinda thing... mite as well chop off my hand.. so useles... stupid mi...
o ya... the national day... we paint the banner le... nice though it spoiled abit... but i enjoy cing ppl putting effort to do sumthing.. it warms my heart.. =)) then got rehearsal on wed... ya.. tml lor..
n tml i will b so busy... ya... tml got a maths test!!! then go for the parade then for acers then got tuition.. busy day...
haiz.. ya... n haiz... love just so unpredictable... love is sumthing u nd or is it sumthing u wan??? i dun understand myself either... haiz... i wan it yet i dun wan it... "i love you" means a lot to mi... u say it but i dun belief it... cuz i dun hv the courage to understand n know it... i dun wanna understand it... wad is love all about?? it suddenly cums blur in front of my eyes... but u hv to know... i really love you.... the type of irreversible.. cn u feel it??
love is never saying sorry...
i blowed at,,
11:38 AM
BUMP... long since i blog again.. kekez.. bloging is just not sumthing i m use to lahz.. but i thnk it is kinda interesting rite?? kekez..
YA.. happy stuff... the soccer day... it was so fun!!! kekez... we reach there so early lahz.. kekez... then sat dwn talk n talk.. tok sum monkey fotos.. kekez.. then the soccer was ok lahz.. exciting in front then behind i keep want to fall aslp liao lahz.. then went to sku and had our breakfast.. kekez.. so tired that day.. but i nv regret it lorz.. so fun and all... kekez.. so much fun... a slpless nite yet fruitful and lovely.......
erm... haiz.. i saw the fotos lah... heartbroken... shldnt it b mi?? haiz... guess it is no longer the same... the one that was once mi.. replaced... so easily?? i tot it was eva so strong... haiz... things so much since then... the passion... the love.. the feeling... all changed into sumthing i no longer understand and feel...
chinese oral... kekez... happy stuf?? kekez... ok lahz... i just think it is super farnie lahz.. aiyah.. did alot of stupid stuff lahz.. kekez..
o ya... the trip to yjc... we lyk so unattended lahz.. coz our blazar looks the same.. kekez.. n they all mistook us lahz.. kekez... n saw sumbody slping at the library.. kekez.. farnie scene... then we did a stupid thing lahz.. took the bus back n miss the bustop.. 10 mins trip n we took 2 hrs.. luckily they were nice.. n the bubble tea... esp swit xia.. kekex.. thx.... lots of love man... =))
ya... n the tuition.. it is so swit of u.. kekez.. jux wanna say thank you... you owaz mak that smile on my face..
haiz... i got the feeling that nthg is gonna come back... but lyk tt lo... no choice...
ya.. common test is cuming le... and they having exam le... kekez.. jia you... kekez... mi too will b studying... but where to study??? suggestion?? kekez...
wad it means to you, doesn't actually mean to others... feel it with ur heart...
i blowed at,,
10:10 PM
BOOM!!!! long since i blog lehx.. still dun really noe wad to blog bout... kekez..
Investiture... a great success to mi.. we did a great job i think... all of us.. everybody was so shuai... omg.. so nice!! kekez... so proud... kekez...
erm... relationship... sumthing hard to maintain huh... sumthing hard to get too.. i mean good ones... dun lose it if u hv it.. dun hv it.. find it... sumthing which requres not oni tym, effort, love, sacrifices too... if u wanna sustain a relationshp, much has to done... communication.. interaction.. able to b there.. able to b the one that listens to the heart n not the eyes nor the ears n the mouth of other ppl... cld ther really b this kind of relationship?? perfect???
erm... [perfect].. one word that is so undefined.. wads perfect?? is nobody really perfect?? i think everybody is perfect!! it is just the perspective u look at ppl.. if u cn tolerate this and think that it is good then it will b perfect... just lyk.. if the one i love is smoking.. but i just hate the smell.. but he dun smoke in front of mi.. n dun even let mi c him smoking.. i will think that he is perfect for mi.. but sumbody will just say it is not perfect.. it goes by perference..
haiz.. i cnt plck up the courage.. i jux dunno how to do it.. so disappointed by myself... haix... dunno lehx.. i guess it flew away..
if ppl do wrong to u, wad will u do?? haix.. wondering... accept it?? reject it?? think u r very ke lian?? dun care bout it?? hate that person?? love that person?? try to understand y?? try to gif reasons for his or her behaviour?? start to blame??? erm... wad will i do...??haiz.. thnk i will love her... coz i hope if i do wrong to ppl, ppl will still love mi....
my mind not working... cnt think of happy thing.. kekez...
[love is not selfish but selfless...] =)
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11:32 PM
