GOD LOVES YOU!!

yapex.. another new topic for my blog.. i m suppose to blog all the grad nite fotos but i dun hav it.. so ya.. jus wait then.. =( but its alrite..was reading this insipiratg book that zheng jie gave mi some tym ago.. i jus saw a phrase lyk tt " BE REALISTIC IN YOUR EXPECTATION".. it really struck mi.. i lyk reading this book "THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE".. it talks about many real things in life.. issues that happen in life...

there are many expectations in life.. standard of life.. church.. christians.. partner.. families.. frens.. boyfrens.. employers.. employees.. mentors.. mentees... computers.. studies.. how den do we live up to so many different expectations in our life?? dun ask mi.. cuz i cnt ans to that.. cuz i dun think i m meeting any of it and i m the one setting some of the impossible expectations to meet too... there are so many things that one has to do to reach the expectation.. thats when "BE REALISTIC" cums in.. thinking bout it.. no one is perfect and i dun mean 'no one' being a person.. there is owaz some of the things that cn nv be or yet to be up to the standard of the expectations while some aldry shot far above the expectation mark... wad then is it??

expectations that are set by other ppl.. how do i noe wad is ur expectation when u keep ur mouth shut rite?? isnt that common sense?? i dun understand y i m not being able to understand that... i m still expecting this and that.. n yet i get disapppointed when i see that u r not making it.. sum times i really hope to be understanding and tries to find excuses for u.. and yet u fail mi again n again.. sumtyms i m really helpless.. sumtyms i really hope i haven expect that from u... maybe i really shld have shut both my eyes and take it as i nv see it at all... but i simply cnt stand it... haiz..

the book tells me (ofcoz i translate it into my own context).. we must still love it although it is imperfect.. but we cnt settle for the real without striving for the ideal.. other ppl will disappoint you and let you down but you must not stop being frens and stop the connection with them.. we must give up the illusion tt one can be perfect in order to love it, the sooner we admit that we are all imperfect then can we really grow..

i learn but i may not noe how to apply it... sorry..

[LONGING FOR THE IDEAL WHILE CRITICIZING THE REAL IS EVIDENCE OF IMMATURITY.]

[BE PATIENT WITH EACH OTHER, MAKING ALLOWANCE FOR EACH OTHER'S FAULTS BECAUSE OF YOUR LOVE]

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12:45 PM

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause
I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

[chorus:]
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers In lonely hours
The tears devour you

[chorus]

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing rightbefore you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

[chorus]
I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

i dunno if i blog this lyrics b4.. dun ask mi y i m attracted to this song.. cuz i dunno y.. it jus catches my attention..

[will u really do tt??can you really be everything i need??]

i blowed at,,
12:32 AM

WULALA.. Long long long since i uploaded pictures.. these are aldry outdated fotos i noe.. but kekez.. nvm lah k?? =))

20th SEPTEMBER 2007

CLASS OUTING: SENTOSA

ENTRY TICKET!! i think this is the first tym i sat the rail cuz i have been ages sc i got there.. tt tym i went by cable car i think... scary!! train safer.. say i sua ku.. mountain tortoise.. i dun care... kekez.. thats jus the way i m... frog in the well.. =P

JOEY AND MI!!! i dun think u see the effect.. but ya.. our legs are LOOONG!!! means we are TALL!!

SENTOSA.. jus settled down or we jus played i think.. =)

JUMPY JUMP JUMP!! kekez.. i think this is the more successful one!!! kekez.. i think it looks cute!!! SEAN, ZHENG JIE, ME, SHI JIA, MITCHELL...

MY whole family... celebrating jie jie's bdae at swensens!! i simply love them a lot.. they are the ones that my make my world go round... =))

BIRTHDAY GIRL.. no cake only ice cream!!!! =)

18th OCTOBER

YU SOON... with the cake i bought i think... yummy yummy!! SURPRISE delivery to his house!! kekez.. =))ON THE CAB back to yishun... looong fren.. =)

RANDOM:

CHINA BOY name tag.. STEPH AND SAMAN... thats what they did while getting bored over studies!!! kekez.. LOVES..CHERRY STALK... i tied it wif my tongue!!! PUZZLE bought by JP... so cute!! the title is "SNOOPY'S BIRTHDAY".. hard work but fun!! in search of a 5000 piece!!! challenge my limit!!"J".. i din make it, i found it... was quite amazed by it... it looks lovely to mi... do u?? ZHENG JIE!! the face look super cute lahz,, but im in specs!!! but its ok!! he is the guy that put toothpaste on my face although i only slept for 3 hrs!!! kekez.. and the fighting!!! i had FUN!! THX!! =)

SEAN... Specs too... kekez... had so much fun wif the endless cards.. =))

had fun since aft o's.. chalets and east coast trips.. !!! but i arent slacking this holidays though... will need to brush up on my english.. constantly praying for mi to pass the o's eng... haiz.. gg for 1st mth but not sure where yet... i hope i get in cjc... wif my frens and all... alrite... its so late now!! 230 pm.. guess wad?? ah dar haven wake up!!!!man.. kekez.. anyway, tonite is GRAD NITE... i will b in heels i think... man.. i hope i dun fall... anyone wanna b a handle?? kekez..

[so near yet so far.. so far yet so near.. either ways thanks...]

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1:23 PM

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough'

Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not'
Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freelyIn your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me'
Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see

I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough'

Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist'
Cause you're the air
That I breathe'

Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love
Baby I can't help it

Keep me drowningIn your love
I keep drowningIn your love
Baby I can't help it
Can't help it no, no'

Cause everytime
I breathe I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

i blowed at,,
8:31 PM

LALALA.. miss mi miss mi miss mi??? actualy i dun really miss cumg up here though.. if u noe mi well.. the com is just not my fav and defnitely not my world.. finailly the last o's paper is tmr.. happy??? supposed to b.. but ask me to consider mayb i wld rather study.. i will b having TOO MUCH free tym to be in the wonderland.. n i dun lyk it ofoz.. n i hate it.. so ASK MI OUT!! kekez.. will b having tuitions and hopfully camping and all.. i miss all those times kina lots... wanna get bk to my playful life.. yapex.. have been watching too much tv dramas and experiences, it comes to mi quite hard that relationship is all of the plot in them. interesting??? i think so too..

FUNDAMENTAL: KINSHIP

FAMILY.. HOME..SIBLINGS.. they all seem so normal that we tak them too forgranted.. too forgranted that we arent even thankful for it.. that we treat everything as if it is supposed to b lyk tt.. jus becux God gave it to us way too easily.. i m not only talking bout happy families that u get to hold both ur parents hands tgt and b able to get security from daddy and comfort frm mummy.. but even broken familes can b happy... dun look dwn on them.. they are ppl living as happy as all the ppl are... in fact single parents are much stronger in my eyes.. they are ppl that stayed on on wad they believe wad is right and wad they wan.. imagine urself in their shoes.. i dun think i can ever do it.. the strength they possess, the power and the will to carry on their life.. the pain they have to go thru.. the kind of eyes ppl look at them.. the kind of helplessness that they feel and the shoulderless world.. n yet wad do we do when we are angry n not in the mood?? yell at them, show our frustration and even vent our anger at them... imgaine the pain they feel for bringing up u and despite showing gratitude thats wad they get?? wldnt they feel that the world is just crushing??think about it..

PRECIOUS: FRIENDSHIP

SCHOOL-S MATES, COLLEAGUES, PARTNERS.. even though they do not seem as important as the top one.. they are second in ranking ACCORDING TO ME!! ya.. they are ppl that u share precious moments wif and even precious stuff with... they are ppl that understand u n gif in to u.. know u upside down.. mayb these are extremes and yet not applicable now to me.. but i noe this do not come overnight.. it tak time n i wld gladly put many 's' to it.. it take ages lahz... it comes thru sharing, quarreling, bickering and even fighting.. sinply put: INTERACTION & COMMUNICATION. both of them seem simple and easy to achieve?? yes they are, but it contain so much more inside lyk TRUST, UNDERSTANDING, CARING, FORGIVING, COMPROMISING and GIVING IN... wad is all this to u?? are u really doing it?? do u really noe wad are they?? try doing it..

GIFTS: BGR

BOYFRENS and GIRLFRENS.. focusing on wad is common. FRENS.. so APPLY wad is in friends first...!! thats what i believe in.. then do u talk about wad is in front.. in both.. having the extra, ofcox u have sumthing more then all of them and ofcoz sumthing that attracts and stands out.. that i think is fundamental.. i dun really have wad it takes to talk bout this... but in my opinion, it is sumthing not so easy to handle and even too chim for mi to noe.. arent ready for it at all... i dun hv wad it takes... but i noe, i means COMMITMENT.. it means that u have to devote. it means TIME.. and all of the qualities that occur in friends.

CONCLUSION: RELATIONSHIP

no matter what kind it is.. it is important to mi.. if u noe, i m sumone that lyks relationship and enjoys the tym spent alot.. it occurs to mi in the dramas that relationship seem so fragile and weak.. and even in real life.. it means pain and agony.. it means fun and secret and loving.. it means sharing and shouldering.. it means helping and caring.. it means understandg and trust.. so wad is it that keep all this relatioship going?? pondering...

[ Hold on and mend the broken relationship when u have the time and the chance, do not let it b a regret.. for those that have yet broken any, preserve it..]

i blowed at,,
6:09 PM